Learning to Celebrate

This is the first post of something great.  I've needed to write to feel "normal" again.  Life has been a roller coaster for many years but it seems that God has been trying to build me into the person I always wanted to be, that can handle the toughest of curves and mountains.  I stress that none of this would be possible without Christ and seeking Him.  My family is whole with God leading the way and it's the best feeling I have ever experienced.  There have been some unexpected barriers but with God we are learning to change our hearts and thoughts about what is most important and how to manage and even celebrate the life we have.  Hunter turned 4 back on July 31st and on November 10th of this year we were told that he has moderate autism.  It was very difficult to swallow at first but now we are starting to see that God has an amazing plan in place, not sure what that is, but that's the beauty of it.  Hunter might not be like the other children his age but he is so smart and has the most beautiful soul and heart.  He is creative and I just know that God has something very special for him.  It sometimes feels like a hurricane with all of the doctors and therapists and lists of what to do, what not to do, what to buy, what to say, how to say it, call this person, go here, go there, and so much more.  Finances seem to always come in to play, especially now with a new baby.  All of this was unexpected but it's been such a blessing, in fact this life that God has given me is EVERYTHING to me.  I am starting to see how awesome and glorious God is even more every single day.  His never ending mercy is remarkable.  I know that this post might be a little preachy, but it's the only way I can explain my life at this point right now.  I have these two beautiful sons and a husband that I always dreamed I would have.  I often wonder why God gave me all this after the way I've acted in the past, but now I see he led me through that to get to this.  It's made me appreciate every single smile, laugh, and cry...every good time and bad.  I wouldn't change the way I got here or how this life is, for a temporary life Lord, it's perfect and I praise You and thank You for all of this.